My First Mother's Day

Tomorrow, a passerby will look at me and assume that this is my first Mother's Day. Tomorrow is not my first Mother's Day. My first Mother's Day was three years ago, just two short months after I gave birth to Ella. I am surprised that three years later I still feel wounded. I feel guilty that I have this beautiful (almost) one year old baby girl to love on and I am not all that excited about the day. I don't know how I am going to be around the people tomorrow... The same people that failed to acknowledge me as a mother three years ago.

I don't come here nearly enough. I like logging on because I feel like this is Ella's space and this is where I can connect with her. I've noticed that there are quite a number of new people following- which I don't know how that happened since my posts are few and far between and there's really nothing special going on. But, if you'd like, please introduce yourself here. Wishing you all a peaceful and gentle Mother's Day.