Sucky Cervix

I'm feeling pretty down about my meeting with the perinatologist this afternoon. For the record, my OB has done nothing but talk up the cerclage since I lost Ella in March. She continually expresses her confidence in the procedure and thinks it is the solution for my situation. I guess I expected the same type of thing from this new doctor. I was really looking forward to formulating a plan with him and felt really positive about it beforehand. Let's just say he wasn't all puppy dogs and lollipops. He didn't sugar coat anything. He said he's had a lot of success with cerclages, but that if you do the research, they are not fool proof. Yeah, I know that. I follow a couple of blogs where this has been the case. Anyway, the cervical ultrasound showed that at 10 weeks, 5 days my cervix is only measuring 3.6 cm. That's just average. I was hoping for it to be closer to 4-5 cm. It was also discovered that I just don't have a whole lot of cervix on the outside. This is going to make it difficult for him to get the stitch as high as I was hoping. The plan, however is still to proceed with a cerclage. The procedure is actually taking place very soon. I don't love this guy like I do my OB, but I think he has a lot of experience and I know he is going to do his very best. He will do cervical checks as often as once a week. And, he said he won't hesitate to put me on bed rest should we see a change in length. Right now, I'm even contemplating just quitting my job altogether. Sigh. Please universe, let this baby LIVE.